Karma kicks in on a beautiful day

Today the sun is shining and the atmosphere in the mall close to my house is very peaceful and nice. The kids are playing in the backyard and there would have been nice things to do at work.

Unfortunately I cant really enjoy any of this caus Im ill, hurting everywhere and I barely have the energy to walk to the store and back. I believe this is because I have lived my life very impatiently, and karma forces me to sit back and think about my life. I might be wrong and just had a flue without anything more to it. But to me it seems like life has a funny way to guide me at those times when Im a bit lost.

Living unpatiently has two sides. Of course I make mistakes, but in the other hand its necessary to have the guts to change things if Im not happy. When I die, at least I have lived my life with enthusiasm. I just need to think more where to draw the line and what I want from life.

Two aphorism to undo each other;

        "  Live the life you love, love the life you live "

        " A tiny impatience can destroy a great plan " 

Bonsai stuffs

Ive had my Carmona ( Fukien Tea tree ) bonsai for a couple of weeks now and its still alive! I have been pruning it one time, watering and tying it up. Its better not to do too much anything yeat since its fall.

My dad made me a stand for the bonsai. I chose to have it in my kitchen, caus its warm there and I cant throw my hula hoop at it.

I got a couple of plants from my friend who will be leaving the country soon and I noticed the other one has huge roots. The plant is called limoviikuna/ Benjamin ficus, and its used also as a bonsai tree. Im a little frustrated though, caus I cant repot it in a long time yet, so I cant really know how the roots look like. All I know is that theyre huge and its gonna be one of those akward looking bonsais.

The akward one.

The plan is to eventually cut off almost the whole trunk, leave the roots as the trunk and hope the leaves will grow on top.